All of this makes me think about what is important in my life. I purged my friends’ on Facebook. There are people that I have recently met and people I used to know that I don’t talk to. And quite frankly, don’t care to.
In 20 days I will be 25. Half way to 50. I am a wife and a mother. And what is important to me?
Having people that I know care about me. Ones that truly are there to listen. A shoulder to cry on. Willing to take any help when it is offered at no cost to them. Ones that I can laugh with. That I can be me with.
Who am I?
I am shy and outgoing. I am loud and quite. I am polite and respectful. I am loving and caring. I am opinionated and open minded.
And if you have a problem with this, then go somewhere else. As I get closer and closer to 25 (which I realize is no where near a midlife crisis), I know more about what matters.
I think the best example in life is the generation that will soon be lost. Our elderly. Every so often I go and play BINGO. I love it. I sit and listen to these ladies. And they are not afraid to tell it like it is. So why should I spend the rest of my life “playing nice”? That’s not to say that there is no room for diplomacy. But I refuse to surround myself with people who are fake. People that you have to walk on eggshells around because you might hurt their feelings. I would never set out to be rude to someone. But if asked, I am not going to sugar coat things. I never have. And no0t planning on changing either.
This leads me to think about the kind of people I want around my son. The things that I want him to pick up. Right now we are working on curbing his biting (so far he has only bit Jess and I) and hitting (he has only hit the dog or mommy and daddy). But just because he is doing these things now, that does not mean that I want to have him around other kids who do the same things while the parents stand by and do nothing.
More often than not, I am scared to death. Of doing something wrong, of messing my kid up…..
I hate being in social situations. Yep, hate it. I would much rather sit behind a computer than talk to people face to face. Unless of course we have become good friends. Then I could talk to you for hours!
